I've tried several times over the past month to reach out to my family and get help but I just keep getting brushed off. I think I always thought they would be there and I know they want to be, I just don't think they can. Maybe they just don't know how maybe they just think it isn't that serious. The only thing that has gotten me through the past several nights is the crisis chat line and I don't think it is as effective as it was at the beginning.