You aren't odd for it at all. I have always been the same.

I have always had plans for my future - even when I was at my most suicidal. I had goals that I was working towards. It just didn't mean that I wanted them, or that I even felt like I would reach them - I just knew that that was what was expected in life, so I was working towards them. I lived an outwardly very normal and good life.

And then I tried to kill myself and no one saw that coming.

And then within a week or two I was back to apparently working towards those same goals and life went on as normal. Didn't mean that my thoughts and emotions changed... it's just that it is how life is supposed to go and I live it that way -- my thoughts and emotions rarely match up with my actions.

So you are definitely not alone. Are you currently talking to your councellor right now? It sounds like now is the time to be going back!