Hello

I'm Krissy. I was diagnosed in 2010 with Bipolar II Rapid cycling. I have been switching doctors for a while now and have experienced varying degrees of diagnosis. I have had 2 doctors tell me I have bipolar rapid cycling, but one that said I am not bipolar but have a mood swing disorder of some sort.

I was on meds but stopped after I developed muscle stiffness and slowly began losing movement. I detoxed with the reluctant help of my doctor, and I don't currently see anyone for therapy or medications.

I decided on my own that the meds were not working and that I could be fine on my own if I was strict about my life (schedule of activities, diet, exercise, etc). I spent two years after my first diagnosis in and out of hospitals and rehab centers. I then spent some time trying to get back into school. I finally was able to transfer into a university and am currently trying to succeed in finishing my bachelors degrees.

I don't see anyone for my bipolar, but I do struggle with it daily. I have a hard time with anxiety and mood swings- I can't drive because of my anxiety and my bipolar makes socializing difficult. I live on campus, but find it to be triggering to the point where I basically commute. I have had a resurgence of anxiety attacks coupled with depression as well as weeks where I am as high as a kite.

My purpose in joining here was to open up my support group and maybe find a way to stay off meds or accept the fact that I just might really need them... I also joined because I am a huge isolater. I am an approachable person, but I don't keep friends easily. It's easier for me to write than speak.