what happened to you is truly bad. No one deserves that kind of abuse. .You don't need to feel that it isn't important enough. It happened and it is important. You are really strong to have posted it here. Thats a lot of courage. You matter! No one should treat a dog like that let alone a human being. As children we are intitled to freedom from fear, intitled to safety, intitled to food and clothing, and a home , warmth and support. You do too. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise and if that means getting help do what you need to do. Ignore the emotional blackmail. Hope gentle healing comes your way. courage award