For those who know my analogy with my t about the therapy room being "our plane" and me being "the pilot" and her being the "co pilot, the flight time is 50 minutes and we are flying at 30,000 feet.

I went in there today hurt, angry anxious, ect... I was looking for reassurance from her, to continue my trauma work, and other work. I have been contemplating quitting therapy.

So I told my t: im here today feeling miserable and hurt, im your pilot, are you willing to take the wheel of the plane , when we hit (turbulence) feelings and emotions. ? Are you willing to land the plane if we hit an air pocket (dissocation).

My t said: I will always be by your side, remember two sessions ago I was helping you land the plane, I was at the wheel , almost landed it for you, but you took the wheel from me. Will you let me help you by letting me land the plane when you cant, let me be there for you?

I guess I felt very vulnerable at this point, and I agreed. We did talk about my sisters csa but only a bit. I did have the courage toopen up about other stuff not related to csa. She wished me a happy thanksgiving and told me she knew how much these holidays trigger me, so she told me to imagine her sitting next to me having dinner together. What do you think? Too mushy?