I wish you well; it sure is a huge struggle. I'm on Effexor now (300 mg), and I swear this stuff, and my psych nurse, have saved my life. She added Abilify in sept., and that made a good thing better. Effexor was the fourth AD I tried over two miserable years. I haven't had much of any luck with therapists though. My point is that you never know what's going to work for you, and it stinks because anything you try takes so long to give it a shot before you can honestly say it isn't going to work. And in the meantime you have nothing to help you put up with your pain. It sounds like the people you're working with do care, so that's hopeful. Maybe they'll find something that helps you very soon. Maybe they'll figure out something that'll help everyone cursed with this rotten disease. Please keep up the fight and stay safe.