Hello MowtownJohnny-

I can empathize with you. I understand the pragmatic aspect of what you have described but I also know that along with being pragmatic it also likely accompanies the pain and anguish of living with such despair that the solution would be to end your life.

I wrote about this on another thread that you created but I also know the despair attached to being damaged by the mental health profession. It was what happened by the profession that was supposed to be helpful to me, as I battle with PTSD and depression, that sent me over the edge into a place where I can't see a way out. But something has kept me from making that final decision and ending my life. I really don't know what it is or why, considering all that has been lost and may never be found again. I know how simple this may sound, how unhelpful and ridiculous but-you don't know what might happen tomorrow. You don't know if something will happen that will begin a process of turning things around for you. I am sorry if that seems too trite but it is this unknown-what might happen to change this nightmare-that has kept me around thus far.

There are at least three of us, who have responded to you so far, who understand your situation and have suggested that you hang on. Please keep talking about this. The people on this forum care about you and about what happens to you. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to be free of the pain. I wish you all the best.