I don't want her to be tired of me. I want her to have limits so she won't get too tired of me, and I want her to help me but I don't seem to get it right, asking her for concrete supports, because that doesn't work out too well. Anyway, she's only human, and I blew it. I expect too much of her I guess and was very scared to work with her after last week and I blew it. I should have taken the day off therapy. I've been pushing hard through the work and needed a manageable session and I blew it. She is fed up with me. I'm thinking of skipping the next several sessions, give her time to see what she thinks of me. I don't know how to deal anyway, I am feeling so reactive, she told me something big before she was tired of me, and I couldn't cope with it.

I can tell she's really mad at me. Mad at the way I do therapy, mad at how hard it is for her. I'm too controlling I guess, and I'm too demanding I guess, wish she would have told me though.

Edited to add: I guess she was trying to tell me, and it just didn't go well.