"She can disappear at the click of a button"

Any therapist can terminate at any time... I wouldn't have any more recourse than I do now. She's been doing online therapy a while and says she does not have plans to leave it anytime soon. I have to take her at her word, as I would with a therapist in person.

I really don't know how to judge the mistakes against the successes right now. I'm very upset, struggling in real life, and mindful of the great progress I've made with her too. But yes, this last week has been very rough, it's going to have to take me time to sort out what happens next.

Right now, I'm just... struggling. Not wanting to decide, just wanting to manage.