I feel like my head is going to explode. I hate myself. It's not worth it to try. The stress is so overwhelming. Every step up you slide back down. And it's not even something important! No normal person would get this riled up about this. I want to be impulsive but I'm restraining myself. For what? So I can fail yet again? School is the only stable thing in my life right now and it's causing me untold stress and anxiety. But it's my fault for putting myself in this situation. Always is.