am 25, female, average looking (maybe somewhat gd looking I dnt know), and got a gd job (doesn't pay much but I like it). I live in the middle east so am still living with my parents with curfew and feeling am controlled and that I hadn't live my college years like I should have. And am not over a great relation I was in 3 years ago that I messed up badly (literally all my fault).
pessimism and depression is destroying me and it's affecting my health and I've been in a series of bad luck events! I dnt think I'll ever find love or happiness. I barley go out, no one wants to date me, I have few friends but not close friends. I deactivated my facebook acct a year ago because all my frnds r getting engaged and married or traveling.
what can I do? is there any books I can read?
please I want to change.