I don't know. I feel like the only way to go in is braced for a day of reckoning. Before she yelled that she was tired of me, she said "Ha, you're always telling me not to lead." and she said there were "so many no nos" with me, as if to suggest I had sort of.... hindered her, that it was my fault maybe. I don't know how to ask for what I want now, because she does not think well of me.

I did try, before this session to ask her for concrete, sort of... 'can do' attitude and tools, and to help me feel.... contained, in control when I was triggered and really struggling hard, but... it hasn't worked out, I feel too pushy now to ask her for anything. I figure it's like I just need to be open to her doing and saying whatever she wants without worrying about how I'm feeling, or I need to just stay away from therapy. Asking her to go easy or help me with things is not good right now.