i talked to my husband today.... i told him about me, my feelings, my failure......from the beginning of my life, i always have lost.... good friends broke my heart, my parents broke my trust..... I've failed. somehow my one of the friend know about his past and try to explain about me and my feelings. i know i am very emotional person. so when we were talking, he was actually arguing with him, and told that he has proud that he had g/f. i am so frustrated right now. i really really want my husband. when will i know what's the feelings of be loved?