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It is odd. I have been trying very hard to not do the self harm thing so that when I go into therapy on wednesday I can say "No I haven't since I wrote you that letter." In the last couple of days I have drunk myself silly. Last night I downed a whole bottle of wine. I usually don't drink at all except the occasional glass of wine or margarita at a restaurant maybe MAYBE once a month. I have also had unprotected sex twice. Go figure it was after drinking. I DON"T want to get pregnant. I am getting too old for that sort of thing and couldn't handle another child...I am failing the ones I have bad enough without throwing another one into the mix. I really need to call my doctor and arrange getting my tubes tied. Sigh. Guess I will add that to my monday phone call list that never get made.
Carrie

<font color=blue>The important thing is this: to be able at any momeent to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.--Charles Du Bos