Hi Prettyjolie,

Wow, you are in a severe depression. I know, I've been there several times. I won't go into it because I don't want to trigger you.
I am sorry that you are struggling day to day. I wish that your parents would realize that depression is real. It's a chemical imbalance in the brain. The only way to get better is to take anti-depressants. It sounds like you are on them and if they don't seem to be working, maybe it's time for a change. I had to go through alot before I found the right ones that worked for me. I am now on two different ones and they work great.
When you are in a severe depression like you are, it's "normal" to feel the way you do. You don't want to go on, there is nothing it seems to live for. That's part of the depression.
I don't want to say anything to upset you any more than you already are. But, I do want you to know that you have my support whenever you need it.
I know you say that talking to a T. isn't your thing, but I do think it would help you.
Anyways, I wish you luck and please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing.
I care,
Hugs,
Boopers