Depression alone can be so difficult. With a young child, it can seem like hell. Then you feel guilty because the child that should be the light of your life is just adding to your troubles.

You don't say if you have anyone else in your life, but since you have a roommate, I'm guessing that you are not married. I've experienced the kind of sleep you are talking about. I used to call it the sleep of the damned. You are so far down that nothing wakes you.

I don't know what your financial situation is or how close your family is to you, but consider either sending your daughter to a daycare center for a while each day or if you have parents close, have them take her for a while each day. The last thing you need is for something to happen to your daughter while you were asleep. You would probably never forgive yourself. There is nothing wrong with day care. Working parents do it all the time and they don't need to know why you are enrolling your daughter in it. I had to send my son to day care when he was two because I was in graduate school and my wife was at a job. He adjusted well and made friends. As I recall, it wasn't overwhelming price wise. God knows we didn't have any money.

Do what is safest for your daughter and give yourself a break. You didn't sign up for depression. No one would chose that for themselves. If you were physically ill, you would think nothing of asking for help. Mental health issues are no different. You shouldn't feel ashamed that you are having problems. You just need help at the moment.

Sam2