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mlyn said:
Is there a reason you are trying to integrate? Is there a rule it needs to happen?
Just seems you are putting too much pressure on yourself/s

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I would say the number one reason I want my final Alter to integrate with me is that I (the person who was birthed, given life to and is personally known as: Me, Carolyn, Rhapsody, Mom, Wife, Friend, Daughter, Aunt, Sister - etc.) can no longer live or no longer feels able to live with the constant struggle that is always going on inside of me, and within all areas of my life - even going as far as to affect the relationships / people I desire to share my life & love with.

BASICALLY and IN A NUT SHELL:

The person I live in as ME is no longer capable of just submitting to the directions and needs of my thoughts and life, I (we) are always at odds with each other..... she forever remains opposite of any thing I want or seek to achieve, in life and in love.

Having HER in my mind / actions all the time is beginning to greatly affect (in a negative way) what I can or cannot do in this world and within the life I have been given - my final alter is always opposite of what I (the physical person) wants, needs or desires in order to be balanced.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

................................ Does this make any sense - Can you all understand what I am trying to say?

HELP!! HELP!! HELP!!! - - - - - - - for this is no way to live.