im 25 years old, and i care too much about others and what they think of me, and i do not know why. i always try to please everybody, because i know that it is the best way to maintain peace in every environment. i'll admit that it gets frustrating at time. but like, saturday evening at work out boss got mad at my coworker (and honestly, i was glad because she gets many chances and gets away many times. i always try my best to do everything freaking single thing right!! and when i make ONE mistake, i'm scolded for it on the same day!) the boss told her not to come to work sunday, i volunteered to work on sunday, although i don't work on sundays and i was tired and all. wednesday when that coworker came to work she was i don't know.... mad at me?? but she did not talk to me all day wednesday!! she talked to our other coworker really nice, sticking up on her (and when she's ready, she'll bad talk that coworker and act like she doesn't like that. I HATE HER TWO-FACED, HYPOCRITICAL WAYS!!) and today she hardly talked to me, she only talked to me when necessary, and she was still idk mad at me? and the boss didn't come, so i was alone, because that coworker spoke only to the one she sometimes bad talk, and even that coworker had an attitude towards me. but the thing is that i did not tell anything of them anything or do them anything that warranted this! oh, and the boss is my sister.

but despite that, i don't get any special treatment! when i do something wrong, i get scolded. i had nothing to do with my coworker getting scolded at on saturday. but it bothered me all day and night yesterday/last night, and today. i mean, i try my best to be nice to everyone, to please everyone, i agree with everything, and still everything falls back on me. i'm the one left out, it 's so frustrating, and the overthinking didn't help, i got so frustrated that i cried. work was so crappy today, because i felt that they were against me. what more am i supposed to do?? i am getting tired of everything and life, i even cut myself tonight, i'm just so fed up :'( then because of other things i think that i'm worthless and serve no purpose. because honestly, i don't think that i have a freaking purpose in this stupid world.