I agree it would probably not be a favorable thing for you right now. I have also been married at least twice, not proud of the fact that I couldn't stay content. Now I live divorced in a 2 year relationship and I'm again not really happy. . .mostly due to symptoms of BPD and I have only recently been diagnosed. So here I am, if I had only known about the BPD earlier I probably would've stayed single and worked on ME first. It is so pertinent to learn to manage the BPD in order to have a more successful relationship. I certainly know how you feel and the rush behind it, the hurry to find someone new; but honestly, answer this question to yourself, is it worth it? When as you even say 'if you don't stop you will do this the rest of your life' and that is pretty much true. If nothing else, ask yourself, wouldn't you like a better quality relationship and doesn't your partner deserve it also? I believe the quicker you commit knowing the effects BPD has, the quicker it may fail. And if one hasn't been in a relatioinship for a very good length of time first ~ how does one know how their partner is going to react, deal with, encourage, support, etc. There is never any guarantee, but let's face it BPD can add a good deal of stress to a partnership of any kind. In parting from this book (lol) my boyfriend has talked of marriage several times even though I feel I'm a mess. Though I would like to be married again one day, right now I cannot commit that deeply to someone with these struggles of mine. I truly feel like it would be giving him the worst of me when what I really wish to do is give him the best of me. . . I never really thought about a relationship as replaceable, but in essence that's the way I lived for a long time and people get hurt. Ya know we're all different in spite of our similarities though. Dig deep and do what you truly believe is right for you and your partner. Sounds so much like me . . . I felt compelled to ramble.