I keep hearing about stuff like DBT but, I haven't checked it out yet. I took a bunch of Omega 3s in the form of fish and flax seed oil today after reading that it helps to stabilize the mood swings. I dunno if its that or I'm just more relaxed. Since being diagnosed a week ago, DX depression/anxiety 6+ yrs ago, I've been heavily researching BPD and analyzing the way I've acted and reacted to people and past relationships over the years. If I can conquer this cold/empty feeling I should be able to rationalize more effectively. It seems to always be in flux as it waxes and wanes.

The friend/girlfriend has been w me 4 years in one form or another. She took it upon herself to initiate conversation w me this afternoon. She wants me to see her as a nice and caring person that still has strong feelings for me. After not hardly talking to me for 2 months, then an entire month of short mean terse messages, This last month we are starting to communicate more as rational people. Today was what I see as a big turning point between us. I have an idea about how to continue the momentum to have an even stronger friendship with her. No one else that knows me or knows her likes her. No one has been able to handle her intense mood swings. They gave us problems for the longest time. Learning about my new DX is helping me to get a grip and to come up with creative ways to handle her. Shes like a part of me and I cant just let her go.