Well I just completely broke down and told him everything. He didn't run in the opposite direction but that doesn't automatically make the urges and thoughts go away. In fact they're severely bad right now so we'll see.

Eta I ended up calling the crisis line because I couldn't handle it. I told them I didn't take any pills even though I took 2 but that's nothing that will do anything. I just want the crisis therapist to call me but I know she's not on call this weekend.