I actually did some physical therapy on my own for a few weeks and I continued to go to my dojo throughout. They were very accommodating to my physical needs. My injuries are healed now thankfully and for the first time in weeks I've been able to do my regular workouts. My body feels deliciously sore and my mind much more clear. I am also doing a yoga teacher training program that is free if we agree to not drink and eat vegan so I'm doing that right now. I don't intend to give up drinking forever but it's not a smart idea at the current moment.

As far as inpatient therapy goes I thought it would be a good idea and I voluntarily admitted myself to a clinic a couple years ago. While I know some clinics are wonderful some are absolute hell and once you're admitted even if you are voluntary they won't let you out until the doctors give you approval. I was not informed of this when I signed myself in. I thought I could leave any time.

At the clinic I went to I was malnourished (I have Celiac's disease and cannot eat gluten and they would not cook me gluten free food nor would they let relatives bring me outside food, I lost weight there and was constantly dizzy and hungry), I was given the wrong medications (I was already on medications that worked for me but they would not give them to me) and they gave them to me at the wrong times of day.

The worst thing that happened though was when one of the other patients sexually assaulted me. I immediately notified the staff and asked to leave as I was voluntary. They informed me I could not leave but they would file a report. One of the other patients was a witness to the assault but she lied and said he didn't do anything so they locked me back in the room with him for the next few days and I was assaulted again. I pitched a fit on purpose so I would wind up in solitary just so I wouldn't be hurt sexually again. I then just put on a happy face and lied my way out of there.

If I had had the money at the time I could have easily sued for malpractice on a number of levels and I feel very strongly about involuntary inpatient programs. Basically I think they are evil and a huge violation of individual rights. While I know some could be helpful if something bad happens in there and I'm under lock and key and can't get out it's too late. I'll never take that chance again. I'd rather die than go to an inpatient facility.

Sorry that was a bit of a rant but it was a rather traumatic experience and when I went in I was expecting a safe zone. I never got to meet with my therapists individually for more than 20 mins a day, the group sessions were not helpful in the slightest, nor was I allowed to exercise or shower regularly. I spent those five days crying on the phone to my boyfriend who tried his best to get me out and failed and trying to get away from the guy who kept assaulting me.

I'm in individual therapy and I see my therapist once every week. I'm not opposed to group therapy either so long as I get along with the group and can fit it in my schedule. I'd also like to add that it's been a while and I've stablized quite a bit. I'm in an open polyamorous relationship and my girlfriend and boyfriend understand my issues and have been an enormous help to me.