Nightlight - wow. Very sensitive. But I think that feeling of "no one is coming" is a phase we pass thru on the way to standing on our own. I am in a phase of partnership right now - I even dreamed that my t helped me vacuum - and I rarely dream of t (or vacuum) - and I am starting to get a subtle feeling of looking forward to starting school, getting away from the nest. But it takes time. And it sounds like your t had unresolved issuesalso. But nobody's perfect. Stuff happens. We can still move on.