I'm going to take my first dose of Citalopram today. I've had the tablets in my cupbard since July! How crazy is that.

When I was first prescribed them I stupidly went on the internet in a bid to better educate myself about the drug, BIG mistake. All it served to do was scare the life out of me & deter me from taking it! There's not a great deal of positive information about anti depressants out there.

So I stuggled on, kidding myself I wasn't as bad as I thought I was, and self medicating with alchohol. However things came to a head when I completely broke down over a bin lid, yes that's right a bin lid!. I couldn't get this lid to go on the bin I turned it around and around yet it just wouldn't sit on right and I threw the lid across the kitchen and burst into a huge epsiode of sobs. That was just one example of how my over reaction to even the small things was getting out of hand.

I knew things had to change so I searched for foums instead and came across this one. Even after justv reading a few post I felt more reasurred about started my medication.

I've gone the the usual mill of thoughts such as..I don't really need them, I'm weak, I'll never get off them.

I think the biggest issue with me is I'm scared of coming off them and the side effects I will get, but I suppose that's a long way off yet.

I've realised I will never know if they'll help until I try. So today is the day.

I'll keep you posted with how I go