I am sad,depressed,and scared. I haven't DSH today,but I want to badly. I also
constantly think about S/OD. I think about the idea of being hospitalized,but then I wonder what they can do that isn't already being done,except take my
freedom away. None of my times on the psych unit were positive. Part of me wants to OD just to get it over with. I feel like it is going to happen at some
point. It's just a matter of when. Now would B a very bad time b/c the holidays
R a hard time of year for my Mom. Several relatives have died during this time
of year/the holidays as a whole. I feel hopeless and helpless.