{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{biiv}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Oh Hon, I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad about yourself. It is so hard to feel confortable in our own skin. It was worst for me when I was younger than now. But still at times I wish I could just forget about all the pieces inside that seemed to never get together.
You are not certanly alone, I'm here for you anytime~