Honestly you're right. It's really not worth the risk selling them. A drug charge would ruin any chance I have at med school period. And I'm not a doctor now so I don't really know what I'm doing.

I've fallen on some really tough times in the past (been homeless for a couple nights, had to steal food in order to eat at all, sell pills to pay rent, etc, and when it's a survival thing there really isn't much of a choice even though I hated doing it.) I'm in a better position now but when you've been so financially destitute for so long it's hard to feel secure. I'm always worried for no reason that I'll end up homeless or not have money for food even though at this point in my life that is highly unlikely. I've got to change that mentality and calm down. If I have a roof over my head and food stamps why risk selling drugs?

I see my psychiatrist in a couple weeks and I'm going to talk to him about it. Do you know anything about working in the medical field while on psychiatric drugs? Is it something I have to disclose or that could hurt me in any way career wise? I'm trying to be a psychiatrist and I told my psychiatrist my concerns about being on meds long term and asked if that would be an issue in my career and he said he knew plenty of doctors who had to take antidepressants or ADHD drugs in order to do their work and that is was nothing to be ashamed of.

I'm not ashamed of taking medication per se, I just don't like what it's doing to my body and I'm a bit of a hippie chick so I prefer all natural methods to cure physical and mental issues if possible. Meds have been a last resort for me as they should be. At some points in my life they helped but now I feel like the risk reward is pushing me towards quitting them. But I'm really scared I won't be able to do it or I'll fail out of school because I'm withdrawing or something.