I made the mistake of moving right next door to my sister. She's always known how to push my buttons; my last couple of years of high school, she and her husband were my legal guardians. Basically, they were bullies and I suffered a great amount of neglect, emotional, verbal, and religious abuse at their hands. They always knew what would "work on me" and had me convinced that I was this horrible, awful person, and that I was so bad that God was even going to send them to hell for what I did! They kicked me out-or threatened to-every time I was on my period for being hormonal. They moved in a couple of men who they knew were dangerous (under the pretense of "saving" them from the hospital) and would leave me alone with them for days at a time-once for about two weeks-just to see what I would do. Then they would try to find a way to "discipline" me for "leading these men on" sexually (because, you know, I was such a *****). I mean, I could go on, but it would take too long. Well, for years, I told myself that maybe I was over-reacting, my I did imagine a lot of that, blah blah blah. But for years they have lied about what they did to me, and they still do even now--right to my face sometimes. They make up these stories about how mean and awful I was to them, that I was stealing, sneaking out, defying them, etc. When I have tried to talk to them about what went on, they just go on about how I was just not remembering it right and imagining it. they have told that to my daughter -- which I didn't figure out till recently. Of course, my daughter believes them.
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