It seems like every time someone looks at me, they are scolding me for doing something wrong or getting in their way. I'm starting to feel like the only reason I exist is so people can tell me how stupid I am and how I should be trying harder. I know I should be doing better, but I'm too exhausted to want to fix my problems.

I try, but it doesn't seem to get anywhere, and people tell be it's because I'm not trying hard enough. Even though I know they're right, they make it sound so easy, and it's not.

My college practicum is coming up. I'm dreading it. I don't want to open myself to yet another set of people to criticize me. I don't think my brain can take in any new information or skills that I should be learning. My mind and body have basically shut down to any self improvement.