My mom actually committed suicide a couple times and now she'd passed that stage and won the battle. She lives happily now and treasure life!

Give yourself a second chance to start over. Forget about the pass! It's done and over. Move on! Think of others that have worser scenarios or situations! I have guilt and shame too- unforgivable but I need to be strong for my mom. Think of someone you should live for- whether they're still alive or not. They want u to be happy.

Ending life does not resolve issue it only adds to it that you have succumb and defeated!
Living is harder than ending. Be strong and you can do it !