I think I need to start taking control of my therapy sessions. My therapist is great. I like her, though at times I'm frustrated in therapy. I trust her, but have great difficulty feeling vulnerable. I still expect her to tell me to go away.

I let my therapist decide what we talk about each session. Sometimes she's on target, sometimes not. Or sometimes she's on target, but then during the conversation, my mind switches over to something else, and she doesn't keep up with me. She still thinks we are on the first topic.

Communicating is very hard for me. If she could read my mind, she'd probably be as confused as me. I've written letters. I just don't communicate well.

She never gives me homework. How do I get better?

How do I let down my guard? I've been meeting with her for about 18 months.

I just want her to really understand me. I'm just scared she'll tell me my issues are weak compared to what other clients deal with. She's never acted that way. She's always been there when I need her. But that's still my main worry.