Thanks everyone! I know I do take too much diazepam sometimes, and I guess it is a form of self injury/self sabotague, but my anxiety is so bad often that sometimes it is the only thing that seems to help. But I am very careful not to increase the dose I take over a month .... I only get it prescribed by a doctor (although they were very reluctant to prescribe it, for sure. To be honest, their lack of cooperation, lack of caring, judgemental attitude, lack of providing any other form of help and rudeness in refusing to prescribe a baby dose for me to take very occasionally for very severe anxiety has contributed to my sort of stuff it attitude towards it (and them) ... bad, I know) I am trying to cut down, and I will keep you posted. Thanks for your concern everyone, you are very kind.

For those who don't know, I live in the UK, and the attitude of a lot of mental health "helpers" over here leaves something to be desired ...

Well that is my rant for today! I am not sleeping anyway at the moment, so I won't take any meds tonight and see what happens I do take Paxil in the mornings which I was prescribed by a shrink who I was eventually referred to.

Love,
Fuzzy