Hello I.Am.The.End-

While I do truly understand how you feel, and often feel the same way about myself, I am going to tell you that you are wrong. You so have every right to be alive, just as much as anyone else. It breaks my heart that we so often feel like we are a burden when we need support and understanding and caring. I once read something about suicidal thoughts that has always stuck with me-it's a trick. It's the depression and the despair that tricks your mind into thinking that you have no worth and should end your life. The depression and hopelessness tricks us into thinking there is never going to be an end to what we are feeling, there will never be a moment of peace, never will be a moment of happiness, never will be an end to all the despair. And, I'm going to repeat what I've said to other people who have lost all hope-you have no way of knowing what will happen tomorrow or the next day. Yes, past history paints a picture that the future will be nothing but more of the same-but no one can know that for sure. Something could happen that will be the onset of change for you, something that will turn things around to give you the happiness and peace of mind that you so deserve. Maybe it will be a small little thing, something that you wouldn't think would end up being a catalyst for positive change in your life. Maybe it will be a big thing, an obvious thing. Either way, no one can say that they know what will happen in the future.

Please know that there are other people who are struggling with similar thoughts and feelings-you are not alone. Please continue to turn to this forum and talk about your pain. You deserve to be supported and listened to and cared for and seen. I hope that you will return and let us know how you are doing. I wish you all the best, as you deserve.