Thank you for the response. Yes I have opened up to him and he has been very understanding. I just feel as time goes by and the same ole situation arises that it becomes old and burdensome. Kind of like, here we go again! I know that he loves me but I just want to be better...to feel normal. Deep down I think he feels like he's doing something wrong because he can't make me happy and it hurts. I understand that it's unhealthy to bottle things up but what do you do when you just feel hopeless and depressed? Ask for space to feel emotions, tell him I just need to cry it out, try to explain that I've always been like this and always will be like this?...hard to know what to do.