Ate out with spouse last night. Proud of myself for not taking the 5 red purge pills. (actually my bloat is huge and it is a day later) Still didn't take the purger.

Well, also, here's what also good that I DID! I am proudd of myself today girls.

I rode my exercise bike for a while. I took a nice walk outside in the A.M. I even smoked less also.

Well honestly friends, most the time I WILL REFUSE TO EAT food that other people do LIKE, cause I CAN't. That is just the way it is friends here on the board.

I come from fat gene genetics, I am telling the honest truth. Yea no doctor will agree. Most docs are jerks (sorry docs) anyway though- I am eating more-- I just eat stuff that my stomach will digest--- nuts, seeds, natural penutbutter and stuff, most of the time. I stay away from eggs butter, toast, fatted milk, icecreams, cheese. I have to not eat this stuff because I put on "tons" I am not NOT MAKING IT UP, NOT MENTALLY ILL. So please don't moderate this post. Some people just say they are large and aren't. I am pretty closer to the normal medical size yet I have to take care of myself.

Still-- I am so proudd I didn't purge or puke yesterday, or today. My tummy is so painfully bloated and the admodmen of mine is hurting so awfully awfully awfully bad that I am again going to be eating less. I know I am sopossed to eat every day atleat 2 good healthy meals. I know I know I know. I am making some progress, not prefection. Thankyou girls for listening and all. Razeljenny