I came awake. I removed the barriers. I am full blown, and fighting regression. I truly feel like I do not exist in reality.

I need to learn to cope. I must live. I cannot die again. No more delusion.

I am fully awake. Desperate. I hate to admit this, truly need help. This is incredibly painful.

I was in delusion for 24 years. I finally woke up. Fighting regression hard. this constant fixation on validation. fantasies. Hard to fight.

I think I have regressed twice in my life. I don't want to live the lie any more. Never again. What can I do to stay in reality?