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Originally Posted by toolesque
You're right, you're right, and I know it. The depressions are getting deeper and lasting longer and I'm having a harder time with them. I know it's part of this whole thing, it's what i do, i know I know... and as anyone can tell from any of my other posts, I am ususally very charged up about recovery, hopeful, even when I am struggling, that this is goign to get better. The darkness has taken hold the last 24 hrs and I cant see my way out. The bad thoughts are coming in and some actions as well. When I have time to myself tonight I can do the meditation thing, I have a house full of kids today  Thank you for your words and resources that means a great great deal to me <3 <3 <3 |
Even with the kids, go in to the bedroom or bathroom for just a minute or two, close your eyes and put your entire attention on your breathing. When your mind starts straying bring it back. Maybe it will ground you and offer a "second wind" to help you make it through the day.
I may be right, but I understand. We all do. The ups and downs with amnesia of one when you're in the midst of the other is one of the hardest things about BPD. It makes it so easy to lose hope, and that is something none of us can afford to do.