my DAD got really drunk on thanksgiving and was fallin over n stuff. i thought i was gonna hve to call 911 again. or emergency. we talked about him going inpatient or outpatient rehab but he says no. and says he stopped drinking now for GOOD. but idk yet...

i stayed up til 4am til he got sober again on friday morning to make sure he didntget out of bed or fall over again or have a alcohol induced stroke and die almost again.

i left him on thanksgiving day to goto my moms and thats when he got drunk. in the morning and then drank the rest of the GIN when i was gone THERE. BAC of .2 and more. prob .4 when i got home. the day i left i felt a tug on my arm like "this isnt a good idea" and heard hallucinations of sirens in my head and i felt like something was gonna happen to him or him die while i was gone. but he just got more drunk.

lotta hallucinations lately. i had a nightmare that i was raped on the street. walking.