That's interesting about feeling less negativiity and not wanting to be someone different or better-i understand you just want to be able to be yourself. The meds are supposed to help us cope with our illness, i am not sure that the t's advice that there are no other tools other than meds and therapy because there are things like yoga and other such things which can be helpful. I feel negativity all day long, deal with sadness, depression to an extreme level, and i think the meds are not even helping, but sometimes i do feel ok, but those days are not many. What i want to achieve is a level of consistancy in how awful i feel and to feel it not so intense, but i am so tired all day long from my meds and sleep alot, it's no good way to live but like you said, they just want to change without accepting what the client wants to achieve. I also still do have to deal with the same issues too as before the meds, but i do have to admit that the meds help when i'm not noticing it because i do feel good until the tiredness kicks in. I also have sleep apnea and have to go through another night of testing for my pressure on my machine, they need to up the pressure level and the doctor said it would help alot. I hope this helps, and i pray you can get what you want from your t and doc they are here to help us, but sometimes we have to find one that suits our true needs.