I rarely am on anymore because I don't have a phone or internet or anything. My life is completely spiraling out of control. My girlfriend and I got in an argument and are no longer together and I lost it. I felt like I had nothing to live for, nothing to hold on to. I cut really bad and have 29 stitches between both arms. My girlfriend isn't allowed back in our apartment because her parents are afraid I would hurt her. I'd never ever do that though But we are still friends, really struggling to get through this, we've never spent a day apart since last September. I've decided to go into impatient (when I went to the hospital for the stitches, they let me go, I swear you can talk them out of everything) and try and sort out my issues, but I'm terrified. I have to give up my job, find a home for my horse, hopefully a dog sitter for my dog (if not I have to give her away), find a home for our six cats, and clean the apartment up. Its a lot of change at once and it just sucks.

I don't know what to expect when I go inpatient, what happens? How long are you usually there? I just am scared....and help or suggestions would be great...I'm lost and feeling lonely.