Really, this week has been hell. I'm about a week out from starting my period so it makes everything that much worse emotionally/psychologically.

I'm just so done dealing with everything. Yesterday we were at a family get together and one of my husband's relatives smacked my son who has the sensory disorder. If I knew exactly who it was I would have caused a big fight, but all I know is that it happened.

Then my brother text me saying that he doesn't want X,Y,Z for Christmas, and to buy him A,B,C....I almost lost it. Really?! I can not afford to buy him presents, he said he wasn't going to buy us any and I'm perfectly okay with it. Told him he didn't have to buy my kids anything, but he still does. And then he turns around and sends me this list of stuff he wants?!

We are broke. Like literally have enough for rent and that's it. We have no food in the house. We have disconnection notices for water and electricity. He's not even paying half the rent, and we pay for everything besides his personal grooming stuff. I just can not take it anymore. We get food stamps, but that's not even enough to cover feeding 3 adults and 2 kids, when it was perfect for just the 4 of us until he moved in. I just don't know what to do anymore. We're not even going to have a Christmas or my son's birthday unless we can borrow money from someone.

And I can't tell him to get out..I just can't. He's 35 with schizophrenic and if he's not living with someone, he's homeless. I'm too nice and now it's causing so much stress.

I just want to take everything & be done. I give up trying to make everyone happy & watching my family suffer. I guess I'm going to have to call the crisis line again this weekend or else I'm going to just lose it.