Hi, I was dignosed with BP type 1 in Feb of 2010 after a huge psychotic mainc episode. I then moved across the country and didn't continue treament and had another major episode in Feb of 2012. Lately, I have been on medication and taking care of myself and have been very stable.

Unfortunately, last month I went out to network for a new job and woke up somewhere else (don't rememeber leaving, but wasn't careful about what I was drinking.) I am now pregnant! I have seen my psychatrist and I am not in a manic state...

I am not sure my best course of action and was hoping the BP community could give some help. Ideally without the mental health component, adoption seems like a beautiful option, but I am not sure I could stay stable for the pregnancy and be safe in the pospartdum period, especially if I have to give my child away (I have had two severe suicidal periods as well.) Termination seems like an ok option, but I am concerned I might not be able to handle that psycologically either. Any input?

Also, the father is esentially a one time partner and does not want to be involved. My family is a major stressor (I'm 31) so I limit my interaction with them. I realize either decision can have major mental health consequences, but was hoping that someone with personal experince with either could weigh in as I decide which set of problems I am going to deal with.

Thanks!