Hi Ouch

From what I read......I think you are crying out for help by going off your medication(s). Your Dr. was venting her frustration with you not abiding by her treatment plan for your condition. Sometimes hospital is the best thing when you are unable to take responsibility for your life. I don't mean this in a harsh or mean way......trust me. I think you need some caring now...and maybe supervised medical intervention could be the answer for you.

Take Care of yourself!

(((((((((((((Ouch)))))))))))))