ty Petunia for noting all that information b/c it's very clear cut for me and it fits.

Maybe reading will help, but I think what would ReALLY help is somebody who has gone or who is going through something similar.

I can tell you I could care less what my b/f thinks or any body "normal" or "typical" thinks. I don't care what the "real" world thinks b/c I'm so far from it.

I'm so far detached from it.

I have an extremely hard time with any kind of intimacy or any closeness from anyone really, but online any support I can get is extremely, happily & so much appreciated.

It really helps from the simplest hug.

Ty.

(((((nothemama)))))))

(((((petunia))))))))