Just to clarify a couple of points, I am sorry if this comes across as short, but it is very triggering for me when I feel someone is assuming things about me or is misunderstanding me. I know it is not intentional, and it is because of a wish to help, but I feel I need to clarify now...

I don't talk about my father beause he is dead, but when he was alive he left us when I was just over 2 and was not a positive influence in my life ever. When i talk about my parents I mean my mother(who was horrid to me) and my step father who came in to my life when I was 10.

I am not the only girl in the family, I have a younger sister who was the darling for my mother.

I agree that i have a lot to work through in regards of my mother and my childhood, it was......often unpleasant and emotionally difficult to say the least.

Once again I am sorry for being snappy.....I will stop writing now as I realise that I am reacting because I am triggered....and I sincerely do appreciate the feedback normally.

This is not a good day again.........