It's been getting worse and I feel I can't do this on my own, but I'm too ashamed to tell my family or anyone close to me about my ED. Lately, I've been restricting every day, binging and purging frequently, and exercising 3-5 hours a day. I'm tired and I feel out of control.

In 2 weeks, I will drop out of college and be on my own. I've told people that I'll be traveling and having adventures, but the more I think about it, the more I think that checking myself into a recovery center may be beneficial. I wouldn't have to hide or be ashamed and I would learn how to cope and regain control of my life.

The only question I have is: how much is it going to cost? I'm still under my parents' insurance but they can't know about any of this. I would be paying out of my savings account and I don't know if I can afford it.

Also, will they accept me? I've never been officially diagnosed with an ED because I've never told anyone. I'm nervous that my condition may not be serious enough and they won't accept me.