This was a bad weekend. My mother visited this week, and somehow her visit made me feel more alone. I reached out to her about feeling depressed, and she just said my problems are my own. I feel hopeless now. I haven't gotten out of my pajamas in days, I just watch tv to try to distract myself and cry. I really don't know what to do anymore. I'm 4 months in and there's no light at the end of this tunnel.

I'm supposed to be visiting family for the holidays, but I don't want to go and be around more people who are just going to pretend I'm fine and nothing's wrong. It just makes me feel more isolated.