About a month ago I was started on low dose antipsychotics as adjunct to the antidepressants I've been taking for five years for my depression. The reason is I was feeling suicidal at the time though nothing serious (no plans), just feeling greatly overwhelmed. Problem is both my mom and dad have diabetes and I'm overweight. And most antipsychotics actually cause diabetes. My doc says it's not a big deal and that doses she prescribed for depression are lower. Yet I worry. So I keep skipping my dose. My diagnosis is mixed anxiety and depression (partly due to trauma and some abuse related issues). Major part of my anxiety is health anxiety. Hyperchondriasis. Actually not sure if that's the right name for it. Anyhow, so this fear of side effects has always been there and freaking me out. Like when I was started on my antidepressants it was so scary because they come with all sorts of side effects. But antipsychotics are much more serious. I'm so confused and afraid and I don't know what to do.