I feel so powerless sometimes. I feel so sad because I have no control over my life sometimes. I had this dream that I was fighting but when I went to go swing I was trying my hardest but I was so weak and I couldn't hit her. And I was trying so hard!. I also had a dream that I was trying to scream but nothing came out it was horrible! I feel like I can't speak up.. I never could speak up. I always keep quiet. Y is that. I feel horrible about myself I'm so upset with myself