OpenEyes, thank you for your reply!

Yes, trying to get better, I repeatedly forget what I´ve been through and I just try and try to act "normal" and have a "normal" life, when the truth is, my story is not "normal" and I can´t expect myself to always feel and react "normally".

Well... the thing with my T is, she´s not really a trauma therapist, and even though she diagnosed "trauma" in my history, we haven´t really worked on it that much yet, and I don´t know how much she actually has that in mind when she sees me.
She more or less likes to talk about whatever comes up each week.
It´s a bit confusing. She´s specialised on eating disorders, which I´ve had too, but after the initital trauma.

I think she thinks, I mostly just have anxiety or an anxiety disorder.... I´m not sure though.
She´s more like a therapist that is very much focused on having a relationship with her clients and not one to tell you her "diagnosis" like a doctor, I don´t know how to describe it.

It´s a bit frustrating for me too, because things seem a little unspecified.